Dear Steph

It floors me and scares me how time passes this quickly. This time last year I got to hold your hand one last time. And to hear you say I love you to your husband one last time. And to see you surrounded by all the people that loved you. I don't know if I find comfort in time passing this quickly or not. I miss talking to you on a daily basis. And shopping together. And having the one person in my life who knows me better than anyone. Matt misses you. Dad misses you. Your girls miss you. I have struggled all year with having peace. If I could visualize what Heaven was like I wouldn't have such a hard time with it. So I have been praying for peace and then just the other day dad said that he can just see you and mom up in heaven and laughing together. That was the first feeling of peace I've felt all year. So it got me thinking that you and mom and everyone else in heaven aren't sad or probably even missing us because soon the rest of us will be joining you. If one year could go this fast then before we know it five years will have passed. Then 10. And in heaven that's probably more like 5 minutes with eternity and all. I miss you so much Stephanie and can't wait till we are all together as a family again.